Room (2019)

This movie is an absolute thriller. Wow! After a long time have I seen a really great thriller. This is one movie that doesn't take much time in establishing the premise or the story of the movie. Right in the first 15 minutes everything starts proceeding with the right pace. This is NOT A HORROR MOVIE. 

There are not ghosts, or scary looking creatures. A very well written script till the end. I was worried if they would be able to give a good conclusion after such an amazing movie, but I was blown away by how smartly the climax has been thought of. There is no chance that you will not like this movie, mate. This movie is probably underrated because of no publicity or maybe the health situation in 2019 restricted it. Nevertheless, this movie deserves a lot of praise.

The movie will also make you question some of the life choices that you make. How a lot of things that we just run after will eventually be of any use or not in life. This movie will surprise you at so many levels that you will completely engross yourself into wanting to know the solution to many situation in the movie.

The movie keeps you guessing the next time. It's really a stupendous screenwriting. Do watch this movie, might affect you psychological. MIGHT. Not more like Incendies, but this has an affect too.

( Teaser: https://youtu.be/uOn2-ZxiJgI?si=C0ocdq0JQYDKlorT )

So do watch it

Peace! 

Mentally ill, but totally Chill!

Mental illness has turned into a trend nowadays. Whomever you talk to, they flex mentioning that they have some kind of mental illness. 

The kids at the present does not know how serious Mental Illness is. It is not funny guyz. People suffer due to this. 

I personally do not have mental illness and do not use it to sound cool. It is not cool. Yet...

I have two moods

1. Constant panic and worrying about every little detail.
2. It is What it is.

I personally do not suffer from mental illness, but I would prefer, "Already disturbed, proceed with caution". Instead of, "Do not disturb" board. 

It's the tiny worries for me. I overintellectualize and overemphasize the tiny bits. Nevertheless, I have learnt from my mistake. And now, eventhough I face perturbing situations. I just chill. I just Chilllll.

That's the mantra mate. Chill. Stay chill. We are all Elsa's of our lives. Chill like her. Sing "let it go" and shoot the snow.

Chill and Let chill.

Peace.!

Happiness.

 All a person wants, needs and chases is "Happiness" all of us are running for freedom and for the joy which we never experienced in reality but in dreams. 

We do wish on becoming the happiest versions of ourselves, don't we? 

Where can we find this happiness?

It's everywhere mate. Where you go, whatever you do, this "Happiness" thing is always around you. It follows you like your shadow. Yet hey, remember that your shadow disappears at a point of time but your Happiness wouldn't.

We are rushed and exhausted to look around for happiness. If we accept the fact that happiness is always around us then we'll be available and we'll be always around Happiness.

Do what you like. Do what you love. Give your best at the important ones. Stay alive and make it happen mate. The happiness we receive after achieving in everything we love is stupendous.

So mate, do what YOU want to do,not what the Society tells you to do.

Wake up to the reality kid. And make it happen. Let the happiness pursue you. 

Peace. 

Incendies

"1+1=1"

When people watch the Oscars, they don't usually care about the Best Foreign Film nominees. Incendies provides so many reasons why people should actually get to see those nominees at all costs. Incendies is the kind of film that one walks away from feeling emotionally drained, one where it stays in the viewer's mind for days on end. Like an intense personal experience, it takes a lot to come to grips with the film's story, a moving plot full of twists and catharsis. At the New Directors/New Films Festival in New York, at which I saw this last night, Denis Villeneuve explained that he has made four films in Canada, but this is the first one to be released in America. Right now, I see no reason why Villeneuve, or any of the actors for that matter, shouldn't have a great future ahead of them.

Based on the play Scorched by Wajdi Mouawad, Incendies follows a non-linear plot that spans two generations. In the present day, Jeanne and Simon are twins who have lost their mother, Nawal. Nawal has stipulated in her will that Jeanne and Simon must return

an envelope to the brother they didn't know existed who is currently living in a fictional Middle Eastern country. Only then can the twins give Nawal a proper burial. Jeanne feels obligated to return the letter, so she goes to the Middle East, only to realize some of Nawal's nastiest secrets. As Jeanne uncovers more about Nawal, the viewer is shown Nawal's story. The film builds up to an unforgettable ending that is sure to rock any viewer.

I don't want to spoil the movie by typing further. I guess this introduction is more than enough to watch the movie. This might look like a normal storyline. But hey, trust me mate, the director has the best plots, screenplay, angles and dialogues inside. 

I watched this movie in 2018. Moreover, this movie got released in 2010. I regret that I did not watch the movie earlier at the same time I regret watching this movie. It's been 14 years, yet I am still stuck with the climax. I'm not lying. For real, I am still stuck. 

Please do watch this movie. Amd if have already watched it and feel okay now. Please do leave the tips on how you overcame the plots. We do appreciate you in advance.

(Teaser ; https://youtu.be/XJ69WnwvZhE?si=Eohu_IEcz_dp1hIG )

Peace (I guess)

Goodluck with watching it. 

Kill Bill

"Revenge is a dish, best served Cold."

“Kill Bill, Volume 1” shows Sir Quentin Tarantino so effortlessly and brilliantly in command of his technique that he reminds me of a virtuoso violinist racing through “Flight of the Bumble Bee” or maybe an accordion prodigy setting a speed record for “Lady of Spain.” I mean that as a sincere compliment. The movie is not about anything at all except the skill and humor of its making. It’s kind of brilliant. 

His story is a distillation of the universe of martial arts movies, elevated to a trancelike mastery of the material. Sir Tarantino is in the Zone. His story engine is revenge. In the opening scene, Bill kills all of the other members of a bridal party, and leaves The Bride (Uma Thurman) for dead. She survives for years in a coma and is awakened by a mosquito’s buzz.

The bride, reverses the paralysis in her legs by “focusing.” Then she vows vengeance on the Deadly Viper Assassination Squad, and as “Volume 1” concludes, she is about half-finished. She has wiped out Vernita Green (Vivica A. Fox) and O-Ren Ishii (Lucy Liu), and in “Volume 2” will presumably kill Elle Driver (Daryl Hannah), Budd (Michael Madsen) and of course Bill (David Carradine). If you think I have given away plot details.. Haha! Mate, then you know nothing about Sir Quentin Tarantino. Even if I try to explain the entire storyline, yet you will get a fresh feeling while watching the movie. 

The movie is all storytelling and no story. The motivations have no psychological depth or resonance, but are simply plot markers. The characters consist of their characteristics. Lurking beneath everything, as it did with “Pulp Fiction,” is the suggestion of a parallel universe in which all of this makes sense in the same way that a superhero’s origin story makes sense.

I'm in the camp of believing both "Kill Bill" films to be one entire story aka "The Whole Bloody Affair," but the Weinstein Company decided to split them into two and it was actually a blessing in disguise. "Kill Bill Vol. 1" is a story more influenced by Eastern martial arts films as we see Sir Quentin Tarantino's love for Hong Kong and Japanese cinema oozing on the screen, also combining elements of the spaghetti western and wrapping it into a classic revenge tale.

Robert Richardson really kills it with his cinematography that feels extremely cinematic and makes the colors pop like something out of a comic book or manga, while RZA and Robert Rodriguez provides some amazing music for the film that feels proper for the tone.

I mean, you can miss movies, you might even miss the masterpieces of the Cinema. But when it comes to Sir Quentin Tarantino's movies. You gotta watch all of them mate.

(Teaser, Kill Bill 1 : https://youtu.be/7kSuas6mRpk?si=weovliT5JBapZATY

Kill Bill 2 : https://youtu.be/WTt8cCIvGYI?si=I8m0UFTtf6F2-DrX )

Please do watch!

Peace ✌🏻

Peace? Peace.

 "Peace was never an option."

Peace. For me, it was just a word. Yes, it WAS. I never settled down. I wanted revenge. I wanted the person on the opposite to feel the same pain. I wanted them to suffer, twice as much as I did. 

But, one hectic day, I was describing the trauma I faced by some authorities to one of friends. I was telling him that I wanted revenge and I would make them regret everything. His reply text was, "Not worthy, leave it. You're stressing yourself not them. Don't lose yourself while being hungry for revenge." 

I felt it. I felt it here. In my heart. 

I left everything. My grudge, my anger and my ego. Do you know mate? Do you know how it felt? Like a big lump of garbage being disposed after a wild week of being busy. I felt like a new person. It felt.. It felt fabulous. 

Okay okay... enough of my lies.. 😂💔

You thought I changed? So did My friend 😂

But bro.. Nah huh!

Why should I withdraw? They placed false accusations on me. They condemned my friends and me for something we never did and will never ever think of doing. And now they are sleeping peacefully, while my friends and I are on Depression every night? 

And you want me to change?? Hello? 

You know what? Such dam fool people create Villains. And then "guilt trip" us? 

How can someone sleep Peacefully without any guilt? How can someone sleep Peacefully after destroying a student's life? How can someone sleep Peacefully after giving a person the suicidal thoughts?

Peace is never an option mate. 

You gotta fight. You gotta fight for yourself. Being quiet and ignorant of the situation will bring you nowhere. The traumas will continue, if you do not speak up.

STAND FOR YOURSELF.

TALK.

TALK. 

SPEAK OUT.

No one's coming to save you, Love.

Be at peace with the people who talk trash about you infront and praise you at your back.

Don't choose peace with the people who deserve to be cut off from the world.

Anyways..

Peace mate. (I have it, if you want, I'll give you too)

The Shawshank Redemption

"Get busy living, or get busy dying."

"The Shawshank Redemption" is a cinematic gem that transcends the boundaries of time and genre, leaving an indelible mark on the hearts of its viewers. Prepare to embark on an emotional rollercoaster as this extraordinary film weaves a tale of hope, resilience, and the triumph of the human spirit. When I first watched this movie, I was immensely motivated with life. It felt like there was hope even after the end.

From the very first scene, I was captivated by the enthralling storytelling and flawless 

performances that bring the characters to life. Tim Robbins delivers an unforgettable portrayal of Andy Dufresne, a man wrongfully convicted but unbroken in spirit. His transformation from despair to unwavering determination is a testament to the resilience that lies within us all.

Morgan Freeman's portrayal of Red (Andy's wise and weathered fellow inmate), was 

Stupendous. Freeman's powerful narration and  profound insights into the human condition add layers of depth to the narrative, immersing you in the profound bond of friendship that develops amidst the confines of Shawshank State Penitentiary. The friendship taught in this movie can never be matched by any other so called friendship movies. The bond thise characters shared amidst them was remarkable.

The movie transcends the prison setting, delving into profound themes that resonate with audiences of all backgrounds. It is a poignant exploration of hope, reminding us that even in the darkest of times, a flicker of light can ignite a wildfire of change. The film masterfully depicts the transformative power of hope and its ability to defy the constraints of circumstance.

Frank Darabont's direction is nothing short of brilliant, flawlessly capturing the essence of Stephen King's original story. The pacing is immaculate, allowing the narrative to unfold at a deliberate and enthralling pace. The cinematography by Roger Deakins paints a mesmerizing visual backdrop, juxtaposing the harsh reality of prison life with moments of breathtaking beauty.

This movie stands as a testament to the potential for redemption and the resilience of the human spirit. It leaves an indelible impact, urging us to reflect on our own lives and the choices we make. The film's enduring message reminds us that no matter the circumstances, we have the power to shape our own destiny and find solace in the smallest moments of joy.

Overall, "The Shawshank Redemption" is a cinematic masterpiece that transcends its prison setting to deliver a universal tale of hope, friendship, and the strength of the human spirit. It is an absolute must-watch that will leave you inspired, moved, and forever changed. 

If you have watched it. Congratulations mate, you know Cinema. If you haven't, Congratulations to you too because you discovered one of the masterpieces in the history of great Cinema.

(Teaser : https://youtu.be/NmzuHjWmXOc?si=B_NsIHvKRlG1G-vR )

Peace 

Oh Captain! My Captain!

 "O Captain! my Captain! our fearful trip is done.."

I have had several people in my life who illuminated me towards success. By mentioning "who guided me" don't think that they are all elder than me. I have had people of my age and younger than me motivate me to work towards my dreams. 

This will probably be a shout-out to a man who was there for me at my lowest point of my life. (But he never knew that he literally saved my life intermittently.)

I first heard the term, "Oh Captain, My Captain", from the movie, "Dead Poet's Society". Later, I saw that term being used to describe, "Dhoni".

My One And Only Captain.

He does not know how deeply he has incentivized me. He taught me on how to live life, on how to not focus on the results but in the process. He taught me to take up failure like a legend. And now, I am not afraid to fail. 

Beyond that, the way he handles victory is one of my favourite things of Mahi. I am an expressive individual. Whenever I play cricket and win a match, I will aggressively celebrate tha victory. But as time passed, as I grew up watching Mahi play. I changed myself. The people on the opposite team are also players like me and players who are better than me. A game has both the sides. You either win or lose and sometimes you tie the match. 

And now, whenever I win a match, I smile and make my way to my team to appreciate them, then go on to appreciate the opposite team.

Yes, he taught me to become a better player, but more than that, he taught me to become a better Human. 

I relate to Mahi and Captain America often. 

Mahi, always wanted the people to know him as a good human. Same as that, Captain America earned the tag "Not a perfect Soldier, but a good man."

Apart from the people who know me. I Love how Mahi, who doesn't even know that I exist, inspired me in several ways.

MAHENDRA SINGH DHONI

Oh Captain! My Captain! 

The OG Vibes!

"Life is all about comebacks, innit mate?"

Every downfall teaches us something deep. Something so deep that it will brutally develop our character. "Character development", the mostly used phase by a guy who just broke up with his girlfriend. 

People, are.. Just people. They are like us too. Then why do we fear them? Why do we have anxiety to perform infront them? They are just humans. Just humans. Why do we bother about them judging us? Do they really matter to us? Do they? 

"The people who will judge us for what we are good at while they have no idea about it", bothers you?

"The people who will eventually forget what you did, how you were awkward and were embarrassed of yourself", bothers you?

Listen to me mate, people do not care about what you do. They have got a life too, like you and I. Their life is what matters to them, not yours. Don't try to become the main character in others' life mate. Same as that, don't let any other individual to become the main character of your life.

Focus on your life. Be the main character of your life. Don't care about anyone. Bring the "OG YOU" back mate. Hit that comeback which you have been procrastinating for months.

Go to the gym, build those muscles. Do the assignments. Participate in all the events. Showcase your skills. Learn new skills. Upskill yourself. Go to the practices on time. Work hard on yourself. Bring the "YOU" back kid. I believe in you. I know you are capable of everything. 

Yes, I might be.. I mean.. Yes, I am a stranger to you. But hey you know something? More than the close ones, the advices which comes from a stranger lives a long time in our mind. (If you watch tamil movies and have watched "Jigarthanda 1", then you'll apprehend to what I am talking about) 

I know it's hard. But hey, You can do it Kid. YOU CAN DO IT! 

ONCE AGAIN. I BELIEVE IN YOU KID. Come on, make it happen. Not for anyone this time. Okay? It's for you. For your dreams. For your passion. For your peace. For yourself. Purely for yourself.

WAKE UP!! 

 

Words? Words.

 Life is not designed to run out on you, in one day.

With the dawn of a new day, your sorrows don’t grow, but melt away.

Millions of eyes, shedding tears, would have dropped to the ground.

Life moves on, in spite – and mother earth sprouts flowers all around.

From the day, you leave your mother’s womb.

A search begins to play, until you reach the gates of your eventual tomb.

Opening your eyes, to see that all the world is a stage,

Close your eyes, to stay in the safety of your mind’s cage.

Born into a war field, what you get and lose doesn’t matter.

Living in a jungle, thorns don’t kill you – nothing to clatter.

Your shadow stops being your friend, when you walk in the dark.

You are your own seeker in the world – truth.

The day will come when your corpse burns in flames,

Until then, this loneliness will persist in this never ending games.

Waiting aboard the ship, looking for the moment to hit shores.

Rise up and fight, even if it is a volcano, standing on its top, as it roars.

As I realize the truth behind the secrets of god’s holy way,

It is that, nothing exists forever, everything melts away.

My heart floats into the open space,

when I finally get to see the creator........

The heart wishes and accounts for things as yours and mine.

Your burning physical desire marks people as yours and mine.

Nothing is yours or mine, but is for the creator to take.

who is a sinner, who is blesses, is a decision, for him to make.

The world we live in, waits to let you take the blame,

Where are the souls, that felt prey to this act of shame.

Standing at the corner of the world, we view this acting stage,

Only to start acting and be a part of this ever lasting cage.

We need to switch between faces, And so we do.

Lots of turns to take, And so we do.

Let the story take its path and come to its own end.

Do we need another birth to tend?.

These are the words which saved my life twice this year. Credits to Yuvan Shankar Raja and Yuvan Shankar Raja only.!

What's happening?

"Nothing is guaranteed"

Our whole life.. Is a lie. What we live, what we eat, what we drink, what we do. Everything's a lie mate.

Have you ever thought of life in that way? That.. That nothing makes sense. Like NOTHING.

Not even a single thing makes sense bro. 

We are not in this world together, we segregated by thoughts, we are segregated by passion, we are segregated by dreams and much more... We have different opinions and we look at the world and life with different perspective. How do we think that? I mean yes, we have scientific as well as spiritual explanations on how we think. But, how did that person figure out how humans think? 

He Thought? Then is it a loop? You did get it, didn't you? That person must have thought of a method to figure out how we think.

Everything's confusing.

How did we end up on the other side of the world? Why did we end up on the other side of the world? Why do we even exist. What's the purpose of living?

We come, we live and we go again?

(Enter "Kalakalapu 1" [Tamil movie] dialogue, "Idhuku paruthi moota Gudown laye irundhurkalam")

Why do we come into this world.. To die? We live just to suffer. Is suffering, Life? Is that it?

Why do we need food and water to live? Why do we need Oxygen to breathe? Why does everyone's need end up being Food, Shelter and Clothing? Who designed these? Why did they design them?

If God created all these, then.. Then why doesn't He talk to us directly? He is our creator, isn't it? Why do we need to plead to Him? While He can do anything in split of a second? Why did He construct us in this way?

And If it is scientific, why did these reactions happen? Just for us to die every single day? 

Lack of food, lack of water, lack of shelter...

Apart from everything, why does Money play a major role? Why? Why are we invented in this manner?

If we die in a natural way, then who created the Suicide props? Who created those thoughts?

What's even Happening?

Is this all real? Where do we go after our death? Heaven? Hell? Another universe?

Thoughts. They are the eeriest thing in the entire world!

 

Sarcasm, my Vibranium shield!

Hey kid!

Yes! Yes I know that you are exhausted.

Everyone's tired of something.

Look at me, if you meet me in person you will meet the most worn-out individual in the entire world. 

(Yes, Karen.. I know that people face more difficulties than me and I am not that "most worn-out individual in the entire world", yet, my problem is gargantuan to me, right.. Man, you karen get into my nerves every single time)

Watched it kid? People like Karen, will always quell you, will always look at you like a corrigendum and will not let you live in peace. 

How I deal with them is... I turn everything into Sarcasm.

Chandler from the Television series "Friends" is one my most relatable characters. He has immense amount of traumas yet he makes his friends laugh through his humour. 

Eventhough he was at his lowest, he never demonstrated it to the people but he kept everyone around him happy. Chandler was played by the actor, Matthew Perry. The casting crew did a stupendous work there. The script writer did not have to work on that character much. It literally felt like Matthew's character being played with a Fictional name. Matthew Perry is Chandler. Chandler is Matthew Perry. (It's a fact, not an opinion)

He suffered while making us laugh. If you listen to his struggle you will make up your mind that your struggles are not even STRUGGLES. 

He inspires me a lot

(Extra information; I have not yet recovered from his death)

I am, not completely, but for atleast 75%, like Chandler. I use Sarcasm as my defense mechanism. I turn everything into Comedy. Everything's a joke to me. Yes! Everything's a joke to me.

This world is full of fatuous people, kid. Keep that in mind. Don't take these people into your mind. Uncivilized humans. Just worth nothing.

Trust yourself, trust your guts and make the moves. You want it, take it. You don't want it, just leave it. You want to talk, stand up. You want some alone time, have fun being alone.

You are everything you need. You have yourself. That's enough to conquer the world mate. 

Have fun!!

Peace ( I have it now, if you want, ask me, I'll give it )

Judas Kiss!

"People I loved-- People I trusted-- have done their absolute worst to me (Movie: Mr. Robot)"

The most demented, pig-ignorant and cretinous beings are the Human Beings. Including me. (I knew it Karen, that you would start typing, "You are a hooman too". Always find mistakes without knowing that You're itself the biggest mistake in this world) My bad, got a bit sappy!!

Anyways...

Except for Family, Friends, Dhoni and D (my Favourite Fictional Character) everyone's dumb. Not mentioning other cricketers, singers, directors, musicians.. I guess you get whom I'm talking about.

(The people who are condemnatory, disdainful, egocentric and imbecilic.)

The saddest part is that we have to live with these kind of people. No matter what, no matter how aware we are of to whom we talk and do not talk, we will definitely have such kind of people in our lives. And I... Have many of them.

Being an extrovert, I love talking to people. Read it again, I said that "I love talking to people" not "I love attaching emotionally to the people". Talking is different from being attached to people. When you talk.. You just know them, you aren't friends with them.

I realized that I do not put my trust on everyone. When my friends asked about whom I trust the most. I just mentioned a certain amount of people which is easy to be counted. And hey, that's the best feeling ever.. To know that you only believe few and you know that this trust can never be broken.

Happy and satisfying innit mate. 

God, Family, Friends, Dhoni and D (I know he is Fictional, but still hey.. keep quiet) are the ones I trust. I trust none apart from them. 

You know why??

Because people are barmy. They are the most ludicrous, risible and glaikit beings to ever exist. They even betray their own family and friends? Bro like, how?? How can you all even think of that?

Not gonna lie, but I have faced several betrayals in my life. A day.. Uhm! When the Tamil movie "Raayan" got released, we were having our dinner at the mess hall, one of my akkas told me to watch that movie. And then without even catching her next breathe, she told, "Anu, you are being betrayed by everyone like how Dhanush from that movie gets betrayed." 🙃

I was befuddled. But then when I was back in Sri Lanka (MY ONLY HOME), I watched the movie and associated myself to Dhanush from that movie. She was right. She was absolutely right. 

People can never be trusted. They will never hesitate to betray you. 

** intense music plays **

** the motion shot changed from fast Movement to slow Movement **

** Crowded yellow line, Bird's eye view shot on a guy facing to the left while the crowd is facing to the right **

** "Be Different" quote pops out from the screen in yellow coloured "Quentin Tarantino font" **

Why did I create that scene? Nothing, just for you to imagine something. See! See, what I did there? I made you imagine something out of the blue. That's how people work. 

Just through words I made you enter my imagination. This habit that we practiced from the LKG, UKG and Playway made this possible. Words have power. Use them wisely. Just when you talk something and then apologize for it later will never fix the feeling the person on the opposite felt when you spoke it. Nothings going to change the past dude, that's the next lesson.

Nothings going to change the past. Have fun in the present. Forget everything. The present is all we have in our hands bud. Enjoy it, Let's think about the future and stress.. a bit later, okay!!

Have fun now. Do not believe Humans. Betrayal has become the new trend. Beware and have fun fellas..! 

Do not trust anyone. Everyone's like the "Judas' Kiss", brother

Peace (I have it now, if you want ask me)

Ultimate Guide To Procrastination

I'll say it later.. I'm too lazy 

 

 

Dead Poet's Society

 "No matter what people tell you, words and ideas can change the world - Dead Poet's Society"

The movie, "Dead Poet's Society" got released in 1989. I watched it in 2017. The first time I watched it I wailed pitifully. Huh! I'm narrating it in past tense.. I mean, I still watch this movie and wail pitifully. 

The story goes like..

A new English teacher, John Keating (Robin Williams), is introduced to an all-boys preparatory school that is known for its ancient traditions and high standards. He uses unorthodox methods to reach out to his students, who face enormous pressures from their parents and the school. With Keating's help, students Neil Perry (Robert Sean Leonard), Todd Anderson (Ethan Hawke) and others learn to break out of their shells, pursue their dreams and seize the day.

This was the summary given to me, when one of my seniors suggested me to watch this movie. Even the google metioned that this movie belonged to the Comedy/Drama genre. I expected the movie to be completely funny and infact the movie satisfied my expectations until they hit me with the climax.

Neil Perry 🫠. I loved his character and when he broke all the stereotypes, came out and performed on the stage. Man, I was proud of him. But at the end... If you have not seen it, this is going to be a spoiler for you.

⚠️ Read at your own risk. ⚠️

But at the end, when Neil Perry's father did not accept him for what he is. Neil decides to kill himself. And he did. I felt him. I knew the pain....

I KNOW THE PAIN.

He did not have to be this relatable 😒💔

Prof. John Keating took my heart, my kidney, my lungs and everything. He was literally the professor that the place I stay in, wants.... I mean NEEDS. He saved several students' life but could not save Neil. That's Life...

Prof. John Keating, no matter how much he motivates him, no matter if he was like a father figure to Neil. At the end of the day, NEIL'S FATHER'S decision is what matters and it's the fullstop to his passion.

Remember honey, no one can replace your father, mother, brother or sister. No matter how close they are and no matter what they did, Our mom will always be our mom. Our dad will always be our dad. At the end of the day, it's our family, not the family which just says that they will be with you (Oral promises are dangerous to believe).

People may show few, who are close to us and name them as, she is like a mother to you, she is like a father to you. Like, bro! It does not work like that. 

Moreover, this... This... This term...

"Second home".. I am allergic to that term. 

Brother, your home can only make you feel like home. There's nothing called second home, third home here. Ladies, even if you're married and get into your husband's home. You will only feel that "Home thing" at your own "Home". 

Back to Dead Poet's Society..

Neil Perry's death is what makes me howl pitifully. I feel him. I can soulfully understand him. No matter who is with you, if your family does not accept you, what's the point. Furthermore, if your family accepts you and believes in you but you let them down by telling them that you are not strong enough to manage a situation... That guilt is enough to make a grown man kill himself. 

It was never Neil's fault. He tried to fight for himself, but instead, the universe took his life. Killing yourself has become funny with all the memes nowadays. Killing yourself is not funny brother. It's a serious issue. 

If you have not watched the movie. Please do watch it. Add an interesting factor to your movie list. 

(Teaser : https://youtu.be/ye4KFyWu2do?si=hcHQEPf-BH-16-rI )

Peace (If you have it, please share it)

Better to die than live!

 "Life is very short bro, we live everyday, so just leave everything and die one day. - Me"

People are poison. People are the cruelest things in the entire world. People are... Ewwwwwww.

Don't be afraid of losing people. Be afraid of loosing yourself by trying to please everyone. (Source, Coco)

The "they" people, made me lose myself. "They" made me hesitate to carry my cricket kit. "They" made me re-think about the thing I loved my entire life.

When you lose in a relationship, you lose someone else. But when you lose in sports, you lose yourself.

"THEY" MADE ME LOSE MYSELF 

Not a revenge story, but a journey to make the cruel regret it's actions. I do not know what to do right now, but I know that I want to make them regret for their scandalous actions.

Villains aren't born, they are made. I just want to look at their faces, stare dead into their eyes and say, "I don't mind being the villain in your story, beacuse you're a Clown in mine."

Just remember that I would never never stab anyone in the back, that's such a boring form of betrayal. 

A villain is simply a victim whose story hasn’t been told. Behind every villain lies a broken heart. A villain is someone hurt by the world and so they take revenge on it. The scariest villains are the ones who have nothing left to lose.

I sometimes think that, "What’s The Point Of Extorting And Murdering If You Don’t Get To Do What You Desire?" (Source, Lucifer)

If You Feel Guilty After reading All these, Then This Is For You;

Did You Know There's A Special Section In Hell Reserved For You? So, Have Fun!

One last time..

"You either die a hero or live long enough to see yourself become the Villain"

I would never die as a hero, yet I have lived enough to see the Villain in me grow gradually.

Whatever, You'll think about these quotes and get busy with your life. That's life mate, that's the nature of the humans.

So...

Peace (If you have it, please share it)

Anger!

"My heart's already broken baby go on twist the knife- One Direction"

I am getting lost infront of my eyes. I am failing infront of me. I am loosing the kid inside me. That 13 year old girl who thought that she would become a big icon in cricket is dead. She died yesterday, infront of my own naked eyes.

Seeing your younger self die, is the most tragical feeling to ever experience. 

Like the ignored constellation, they turned a blind eye on me. I heard the sound of my heart tearing apart. I asked for water, but they burned me with fire. I asked for a light but they shattered me into darkness. 

They demolished my dreams that I can't even imagine a life with it. They made me chase the worldly things, they made me live according to their will. They took my life from me. 

THEY TOOK MY LIFE FROM ME

Who are they? "They" are the "they" whom I mentioned yesterday. 

We need someone like JD (Actor vijay's character in the movie "Master") to save us from these injustice happening towards us. It's cringe to read. I know because it was cringe to type either. But hey, don't we expect superheroes from our favourite movies to help us during our distress?

My friends and I wanted a JD, Ranga cheta (from the movie "Avesham") and the Marvel Superheroes to save us. We always talk about them and console ourselves. 

But in reality, it's us vs us. We have to fight for ourselves. No one will come to save us.

In the team huddle, which he mentioned in the post-match session, Dhoni said, "The first and foremost thing was don't look up, God is not coming to save you. You have to fight it out".

It's only us. It's you and the evil doers trying to seek vengeance. But instead we call it as, "Life". Life is cruel.

"You strive for your justice and I strive for mine. We are both just ordinary men who have been driven to seek vengeance in the name of Justice. And if one comes to call vengeance justice, we believe that human beings simply cannot understand each other and they never will."

People searching for that one small hole to escape the typical reality will find themselves in the most traumatic situations.

But hey! Remember one thing. Bad things happen only to the Main characters. It's for the plot, so try to make it out alive

Peace (If you have it, please share it)

All lies?

 "Depression isn't always at 3 am, sometimes it hits you at 3 pm when you're with friends and you're halfway through a laugh and suddenly stop."

 They lied to me folks. They lied about the entire situation. I can see you think who that "they" are. "They" are the people who guaranteed me a good life in the place I stay right now. Not gonna lie mate, "they" made me trust them

I TRUSTED THEM

They broke my trust. 

My trust issue is higher than the Mount Everest. Whenever I think of trusting people. These "they" people would definitely give me a warning in my mind to never trust anyone again. 

There's a poem named "Suicide in the Trenches" by the poet Siegfried Sassoon. The poem begins with the poet describing a young man's suicide. You know your life is not going on the right track when you relate to that young guy.

If you listen to Tamil songs, then you would definitely know the song "Endhan kan munne" from the movie "Nanban".

The only difference between him and I is that he gave up and I'm thinking of giving up. I always listen to that song and play it in my guitar.

Moreover the song "pona pogattum" from the movie "Master", it demonstrates about the young boys getting caught by a set of drug dealers, who are forced to enter the jail for their faults. Two of the boys (who are brothers) will die while trying to escape. The song talks about how those boys does not have a chance to correct themselves, feels like an orphan and are forced to live this life against their will. 

I relate to those boys too. When you do not have anyone,.. your family and your friends (who were with you from the childhood) in the place where you have to survive for another one and a half years makes me feel like an orphan. No matter who tries to console you saying that they are there for you, you'll feel like an orpahn atleast for once.

These "they" people will never realize that they are killing students with great talent. Them hiding the fraudulent activities, will never bring them anywhere.

Further, as I've told you several times

What's wrong is wrong and What's right is right. You going around shouting a lie will never become truth. Know that! 

Trying to manipulate people is the cheapest act according to me. Do not manipulate people for your wrong doings and make them accept that they were wrong eventhough when they were right. 

Not to get emotional again. But few people in everyone's life will be desperate to put you down. 

More than anything, keep your noses in your respective businesses. It does not matter who goes out with whom and who talks with whom. Know the exact situation and talk mate. Inquire both the sides honey. Don't rush to a conclusion.

(I got your mind voice bud 😂💔, if you're familiar with tamil meme templates then add that Vadivel sir's template," iwantha engayo semmaya adi waangi irukan, inga wandhu yaaruko nadandha maari pesran" 🏃🏻‍♀️🏃🏻‍♀️) 

As I have already mentioned that I do not like the place I stay in right now.. I was wrong. It's not about the place, it's about the people. Yes, people can be home but on the other hand, people can be graveyards too. Remember that!

Hope you do not get into trouble for something that you never did.

Peace (If you have it, please do share it)

Things I learnt from Harry Potter (6)

 "I like a quiet life, you know me. - Harry Potter"

After a long gap, I watched Happy Potter and the Half blood Prince. After watching the previous part of the series, I was traumatized after sirius' death. As you know that the series gets darker and darker ( it's not only the title card) I fear watching the rest, since the place I am staying right now will not heal the pain caused by the movie.

You might think why I get syrupy for a fake and an imaginary story. As you know that I am a Cinephile, I relate to the movies. I get lost in the creation and live according to that movie's director's wish. That's how mad I am for Cinema. 

But this part, it felt good. Eventhough there were losses and Harry suffered the most, him knowing the secrets of Professor Severes Snape (One of the heroes of Harry Potter known to be a villain) was entrancing. Eventually, Harry gets the idea of how good of a person Snape is. It was gratifying.

Apart from that, Harry stumbles upon a portions textbook (study of magical chemicals) belonging to a person calling himself the Half - blood prince (which was Snape). In an interview, Daniel Radcliffe (the actor who played Harry Potter) mentioned that Harry discovering that text book felt like the first kiss on the cheeks. This demonstrates how deeply he was involved to the project (movie)

Being serious on a thing we love is what I learned today. Snape, eventhough he faced a failed love with Lily 

(Harry's mother) and detested James (Harry's father) he never failed to protect Harry. Being true to a person you love eventhough he/she left you, takes immense amount of courage. (It's hard for me, though 😂)

Snape being true to Lily, even after her marriage authenticates the True Love. Daniel arraying his involvement to his character Harry Potter reveals his True Love towards his passion.

"Hapiness can be found even in the darkest of times if one only remembers to turn on the light"

This quote from Harry Potter and the Prisoner of Azkaban gives a realization about life. 

HP 6 is a mixture of happiness and sorrows.

Furthermore, Harry discovering Lord Voldy's past was snazzy. The casting crew did a great job in selecting Lord Voldy's childhood actor and the teenage actor. They played it ingeniously. 

Do what you love mate and love what you do. Never give up on your True Love bud (it can be your passion, anything you do or a special person). 

Further, do not give your friends the Love portion 🚶🏻‍♀️ (A chemical which ostensibly cause the drinker to fall in love with the person who gave them the potion) 

Moreover, if you get a book or anything which benefits you, please do make use of it mate 😂

Peace ✌🏻

Music is our strongest memory #03

 "Guess who's back, back again."

When I was in grade 6. I played my first cricket tournament. It was a noteworthy day to me. My first ever game in cricket. It augmented my confidence. It felt like I am winning in life.

It was a T20 series against a district ( Kandy - my team vs Colombo) 

I was playing 1 down ( As the 3rd batsman, oh!.. Woman). I was cool headed. I felt stupendous. 

** I heard my heartbeat, it was out of fear and excitement. I breathed aloud. I wore my gloves, carried my bat like a sword. I literally felt like a soldier. I entered the ground. Watched the sky for God's blessings.**

Entered the pitch, a young kid, thinking she will score a century.

The first ball, was a miss. I convinced myself. Did a short ted talk and was ready to face the next ball. Andddddd. That's it. In a second, I found myself walking back to the dressing room.

Yes! Yes! Of course, Yes! I Got Out. I thought the ball went further from the wicketkeeper and began to take a run. But the ball was on her hand andddd "Run out". Up went the Umpire's index finger.

For no one's surprise, We lost the match. Moreover, we had our next match two days later. 

At the second match, they played a song by Eminem. It was "Without me" which got released in 2002 (Coincidence I guess, because I was born in that year). 

When they played this song, I got a strange motivation. It made me feel like I'm capable of scoring a century today. I wanted to shut the mouths of the people who doubted me in the first match. 

When I entered the ground, then played the part;

"Now, this looks like a job for me

So everybody just follow me

'Cause we need a little controversy 

'Cause it feels so empty without me"

Mate, not gonna lie, the confidence level I had at that exact moment was transcendent.

And guess what? 😎

I scored a 108 runs on 76 balls without bestowing my wicket [ 108* (76)] on 6 down. (Guess you would have figured out my batting position)

My team was timid due to the loss we faced on our very first match. So that they did not play well. And look mate. Because of a song, because of Music, I played well (Oh Karen not you again, yes I practiced day and night to play better the next match. But still confidence is key Karen, come on, don't find fault in everything) 

Anyways, ever since that day, I play "Without me" to uplift my confidence. As I have already told you that I don't like staying here (hall), further my friends and I, face several struggles here, we in depth associate ourselves to this song. Especially these lines;

"'Cause we need a little controversy 

'Cause it feels so empty without me" 

This memory from grade 6, which happened in 2013 is still on my mind.

More so, this morning while going to practice, I played that song. It gives me a weird kind of confidence and happiness.

I know that you would have listened to this song. I know that feeling mate, I know how that song makes you feel. Enjoy it. Don't day dream while listening to it. Pleaseeee 😂🤝🏻

Peace out mate! ✌🏻

Music is our strongest memory #02

 "But I love you so (please let me go) 

I love you so (please let me go)" 

When I thought that no love song could ever thwack me, then released a Tamil song.

One of my friends back in Sri Lanka faced a breakup and he was addicted to a song. I went to him, tapped on his shoulder. When he turned around, I saw into his eyes. It was as red as an evening sky. His eye bags were big enough to carry my Cricket kit 🙃. I asked him about the breakup. The first few words he enunciated were, "It is literally like the song Kanawe Kanawe".

"Kanawe Kanawe". It's a breakup song from the movie David. I have never been in Love when I first listened to this song. I felt the pain of the actor. I felt the pain of a failed love eventhough I have never been through that phase. 

That's what fellows is called as "Music". Even if you have never been in that situation, music can make you feel it. 

One fine day, uhm! Okay, okay, I caught your mindset. (Man, you know me well). A usual day when I was frustrated to be in hall. That one friend (Hope you remember him/her from my blogs.) sent a spotify link to my Whatsapp. I don't take my phone so often, yet that day. I took my phone the exact second as the link reached me. 

** I opened it, tapped on the link. Anddddd... **

As usual that Spotify lady came up with her infuriating voice insisting me to get the premium account.  I apoplectic with the advertisemen, yet I stayed. Wanted to know, what song it was. The song played after the ad, unfortunately I could not hear it. Then I realized that my earphones were plugged in to the phone, but the other end was not in my ears.

** I then reached to the buds, placed it in my ears. Then dragged the song to play it from the first**

** Next second, I was lying on my bed, listening to a soporific voice, singing about a failed Love **

 "I LOVE YOU SO" 💕by "THE WALTERS" is about falling in love with someone who isn't ready for a serious relationship. I have never been in this situation either 😂. Yet, this song gives me the ability to feel the pain of a failed love.

On the other hand, I know a couple who has this song as their "Our Song". They are a cool couple. As always they are in a long distanced relationship. Their stories are intriguing to listen. 

Songs carry a meaning which was given to them by their owners. But the people who listen to it will present a new meaning to it. It can be any emotion. It's all about that particular individual's mindset.

As I said yesterday, relate your favourite songs to your favourite memories.

Have fun. Listen to both the songs bud. You'll experience a new taste. 

Peace out mate!! ✌🏻

Music is our strongest memory #01

 "Music, once admitted to the soul, becomes a sort of spirit, and never dies. - Edward Bulwed lytton"

If you listen to Tamil songs, then, I bet that you would have heard the song "Oru naalil" by Yuvan, an unreleased song from the movie Pudhupettai. It was also used in the movie which got released this May, "Star". I could not imagine that some of the kids, never knew this song and they discovered it from the movie Star. That was.. That was Lugubrious. I mean. Bro, That's Yuvan, and you have never heard that?

Fine, Let's not put these so called 2k kids into embarrassment (Comes from the mouth of a 2k kid 🏃🏻‍♀️, not mouth exactly, it's my thumbs typing, I know that Karen, need not to correct me). Too much of hatred? My bad.

Nevertheless, this song, "Oru naalil", if you haven't heard it, please do listen to that song.

I never related to this song until 2024 January. When I was back home for my Christmas Holidays, the day for my return to India arrived closer. Like the flower Snowdrop, which tries it's best to survive in every weather, I tried my best to not demonstrate my emotions to my family. (Obviously I stole this line from the poem "To the Snowdrop" by Willaim wordsworth, read it, if you got time mate).

** I pulled my earphones, took my phone, pinned it together, went to Spotify, clicked on Yuvan hits and played it on shuffle **

My mind was blank. Blank like a Baby's mind when it wakes up, befuddled. My tears were blocking my sight. I was loosing... I lost my sight. My eyes joined my mind. They were blank together.

** Then played **

"Oru naalil wazhkai inga engum odi pogadhu" 

(Which means that our life will not runway in a day.)

My mom entered the room and saw me crying. She called the rest of my family (while mocking me for crying, of course 😂).

Mom, dad, brother and my sister tried to console me. And guess what? I pulled out a "Clown", hid my sorrows behind my heart. Told my mom, "I'm fine with leaving to college". 

That night, about 11.34 pm, I woke up to relaize that my mom was not sleeping beside me. But before I call out her name, I heard a voice coming out from the hall. It was my mom, crying to God to help me stay strong. (Believe me, it was the first time I saw her cry) 

I listened to "Oru naalil" once again. The lyrics.. It was Veracious.

Watching your favourite people cry, especially your mom is poignant. 

I felt bad about myself and then decided that I would never let her cry ever again. (Two days later she cried after looking at a spider in our room, yet that does not count bro 😂, I'm not at fault there.)

Sufferings, is normal for a person. If you are a living being, it is destined for you to suffer in this deplorable world. It's not an opinion but a fact.

At any point, never make your mom cry. Not only mom, making your dad, siblings, best friends or your loved ones cry is the worst feeling ever. Do not disappoint them mate. It's okay to go through hell for them, because they did go through (more than) hell to give us this comfortable rich life. (But bro, do not roger with every wrong doing, we got to stand tall and say No to few things too. We got to balance every action) 

Did not want this blogpost to get emotional, one of my friends played that song and my mind was swamped from that memory. A memory which I would like to forget.

Captain America erased the fact in the quote "Not a perfect Soldier but a good man" and became a Perfect Soldier AND a Good man. Be like Cap buddy. Furthermore, relate your good memories to your favourite songs (free advice) 

Peace Out ✌🏻

Things I learnt from Harry Potter (5)

 "We've all got both light and dark inside us. What matters is the part we choose to act on. That's who we really are - Sirius Black"

Yes, I know!! Having Sirius as my favourite character and watching him perish was not good for my mental health (CHIEFLY WHILE STAYING HERE). It was jittering.

The fifth movie, Harry Potter and the Order of the Phoenix 

Sirius' ending was completely unforeseen. It was.. Abrupt. Moreover my hatred to the character Belatrix paved way to hate the actress who played it. (Yes, again.. Hate is a strong word. Yet, I love Sirius so much) 

Massive respect to Helena Bonham for pulling off Belatrix so well which made us hate her. 

But the only relief was that the Ministry (The government kind of people in the Wizarding World) admitted that Lord Voldy has returned.

From the last movie onwards the good phase of the Harry Potter disappeared. The fact that the title card gets darker and darker with the traumatic events is impressive. It's a notable cinematic factor.

Harry being stronger in his opinions about Lord Voldy is an impressive thing to learn. We should stand strong on our opinions. We should fight for the justice. In actual fact, we must go with our morals. 

But Heyyyyy bro.. As it's Sunday today, we watched another movie. "Latency" is a nail biting thriller. It's a bleak. The movie was about an agoraphobic gamer. I do definitely recommend this movie. Do watch, mate!

Furthermore, I thought to skip this part of the series (Harry Potter). Yet a marathon is a marathon 🙃.

Do not recommend this movie, if you love Sirius.

Peace (I guess) 

Things I learnt from Harry Potter (4)

 " 'Did you put your name into the Goblet of fire, Harry' he asked CALMLY"

As you know that I am back to India. Unfortunately, of course🙃😂. So to distract my heart from feeling heavy, I watched the fourth movie of the series. "Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire". 

As I was watching the movie in the airplane and the estimated travel time was only 1hr, I could not complete watching the movie. Hence, I came to the hall and watched the rest, along with my friends. While watching it, I thought my heart would become carefree. Contrary, it became hefty.

The character Cedric Diggory grasped everyones attention. And especially mine. After he (Robert Pattinson) took up as the Character Batman. I loved him even more. Cedric was a charming person. Despite of the fact that he did not stand against his friends who bullied Harry, he was fine. The only mistake he made was falling in love with Cho Chang. She is no match for him (but I am.. No, No, No, delete that joke from your mind. Pleaseeee). But for real, she was not as good as him.

Cedric's death shatters my heart, every single time watch it. It was the first death after Lord Voldy's return. He died knowing nothing. An innocent soul taken away from this world. This made my heart ponderous. 

Likewise, this place. In which I am right now. Is killing me. It's making my heart murky. 

The major thing I learnt from this movie was that books are better than the movies (only while they turn the books into movies.. okayyy). And I especially learnt that Dumbledore's calmness was put into question by JK Rowling and the directors of Harry Potter.

Was he calm while asking harry about his name bring inside the goblet of fire? Via the book, YES. Via the movie, No, No, definitely Not 😂💔. 

Jokes apart, We should have courage. No matter what the situation we are put into, we should have courage. Harry was hated by all, even by his best friend Ron. Yet he took courage and played The Triwizard Tournament. Having courage while everyone's against you is so cool mate.

As I've told before in my blogpost. What's right will always be right. What's wrong will always be wrong. Even if the whole world is supporting for something which is wrong. It can never become right. 

Cedric diggory was an excellent example for being a tender-hearted person. He shared the trophy with Harry. He played fair. He was such a gentleman. You know what bud? We can be cool without doing all the bad stuff. Cedric being nice to everyone was attractive while compared to Draco being mean (By the way, I love Draco.. I just told it as an example. Draco is amazing. I Love him). Yet, hey!! Draco was turned into a ferret for bullying Harry, remember? So stop bullying and being mean to people. It's not cool mate... nah huh!!

Okay enough..

These are few major things I learnt from HP 4. 

HOPE YOU HAVE GOOD DAY TOMORROW..

Peace ✌🏻

Random thoughts - 01

If you follow my blogposts, then you'll know that I'll be leaving home tomorrow. (In case you did not notice it.. It's not leaving to home, it's LEAVING HOME). My heart's already heavy. I'm all smiling and happy, but only my heart knows how bad it wants to be here at home.

Yet, you know that people can also be home.

I have a person, who is my home there in India. 

He/she is the only peace I have over there. I'm not mortifying my friends or my sisters and brothers. They are suffering with me, we are on the same boat, as they are locals they have their families to console them. As an NRI ( Non-Resident Indian), I don't have my family close to me. I mean my relatives are there, but still that one friend makes me feel like.. I'm home. I'll be forever grateful for them.

Things I learnt from Harry Potter (3)

 "The ones that Love us never really leave us. And you always find them.. In here🫀"

Anddd, you guessed it right. It's the third movie of the series. "Harry Potter and the Prisoner of the Azkaban". Not gonna lie, this is my favourite movie. You know why? Because Sirius Black's character gets his introduction in this. 

Sirius Black is my favourite Harry Potter character. Then comes Fred and George. Sirius' character was well written. He balances humour in a charismatic manner. He is a matured character loved by the entire Fandom. 

The best part of the movie, I mean the movie did not demonstrate it keenly, but the book did. The line goes like, "Harry believed him". Despite of the fact that the entire wizarding world was against Sirius and believed the false accusations about him, Harry beleived him. (This can be an excellent example for my yesterday's blogpost too) 

This movie conveys the importance of family. No matter who we be close with. At the end of the day, it's family who stands for us (I'm getting montage shots of Dom's dialogue in fast and furious. "For Family"). Family can never be replaced by any other individual.

By saying family, it's not just your blood relatives, it's the non blood family too.

For example; your best friends or the famous 'brother from another mother and sister from another mister' people. They are family too. That's how Sirius is related to Harry.

Apart from Harry's family. Ron and Hermione gets into trouble just because they wanna help Harry to escape from all the troubles and especially from Lord Voldy. That's a kind of thing Family does.

The major thing I learnt was to trust Family. No matter what, they rely on us and we on them. Friends are our biggest support and they are the most selfless people. (I know few family members and friends can be toxic, but in my case, my family and friends.. I would rather call all of them as family. So according to my point of view my family's the best. They never left me at any point) 

Further, just because the entire world believes in something, it doesn't become right. What's wrong will always be wrong. Same as that, what's right will always be right. If Harry decided to go along with the wizarding world's opinions on Sirius Black, then the story would have been turned. And Sirius would have pulled another Snape (iykyk). 

Moreover, Hermione punching on Draco's nose and the trio saving Buckbeak (the hippogriff) was sooo cool.

Anyways, keep your close ones even closer guys. Like how Harry has Sirius, Ron, Hermione and Ron's family. Like Anna from frozen II feels free from all the maturity issues just because she has Elsa, Olaf, Kristof and Sven. Just stay put, believe in each other and be happyyy..

Peace out mate!!✌🏻