Random thoughts - 02

Hey amte.. I eman.. heyyyy

I meant, hey nate.. Arrrrggghhhh.. MATE..

Hemlo... (Exhales heavily)

Hello, been thinking a lot these days.. And got caught of thinking several random stufssss

Ahem.. Stuff..

Here you go..

💥)) Once I went to the bank and unknowingly.. I swear, that I unknowingly took the pen which they kept to fill the forms, to home.. Does that mean.. I did a "Bank robbery"??

💥)) If something, I mean a thing, isn't visible enough we squint our eyes to get a clear picture. But, we should widen our eyes innit mate. Why do we squeeze our eyes even more?

💥)) Why do we call the "Fire engine" as "Fire engine" while that vehicle is completely filled with water? Shouldn't it be called, the "Water engine"? 

💥)) If we get two, mind readers and settle them in one single room. Then one of them would think and the other would read it, then the one with thoughts will also read the mind of the other.. But.. Hey... Is he.. Will he read his own mind?.. At the end the day.. Who will read whose?? 

💥)) If we think deeply... Doctors' performing operation is also stabbing a person with knife. But this time, it is to save a life. 

💥)) During Covid or any other massive attacks, government only allows needed institutions to be opened. But did not allow Schools to be opened. Does that mean.. Schools are unimportant? 🏃🏻‍♀️🏃🏻‍♀️

💥)) If one day, we decide to clean the Vaccum cleaner... Then, we are the "Vaccum Cleaner"? 

💥)) No one can tell that They watched a movie completely, like bro? How many times did you blink?? 

Okay.. Yeah I get it mate. Enough for today..

Byeee 😂🫶🏻

Let's understand Serial Killers!

Hi mate, since I've completed a course in criminology and the information is slipping away from my mind, let me left them slip into your mind.

Basically, Serial killers have long captivated the public's imagination, both through media portrayals and real-life cases. Defined as individuals who commit three or more murders over an extended period, their actions often stem from complex psychological factors, including a combination of nature and nurture.

The motivations behind these heinous acts vary widely, ranging from psychological gratification to deeply rooted traumas. Many serial killers exhibit antisocial personality traits, making them capable of manipulating and evading capture. The chilling phenomenon of the "serial killer" often draws us into a world of horror, yet it also raises important questions about the human psyche and societal influences.

While sensationalism in media can lead to misconceptions, understanding the roots and behaviors of serial killers can contribute to criminal psychology and prevention efforts. Engaging with this topic requires a delicate balance of fascination and respect for the victims, reminding us of the profound impact these crimes have on society.

So, you decide whether to support them or.. I don't know, whatever you think.!

Laughter.. Humour.. Sarcasm..

Laughter has always been my go-to response to life’s chaos. Whether it’s a slip on the sidewalk, an awkward conversation, or even serious moments, I find humor everywhere. It’s not just a reaction; it’s a coping mechanism that helps me navigate the ups and downs.

Some might say it’s inappropriate, but I believe laughter is a bridge that connects us. It lightens heavy moments and brings a fresh perspective to tough situations. My friends often tease me for finding the funny side in everything, but that’s my way of embracing life’s absurdities.

But hey, I.. Uhm.. No.. My friends and I have the weirdest habit of laughing at everything and at 

every situation. I know that several say that "I laugh at serious situations". But we do that "LITERALLY". We have and still facing traumatic events. Yet at the end of the day, we fetch up with a great laugh. We laugh at everything.. Like for example, we laugh when a bird flies, we laugh at a rock, then we laugh just by watching eachother laugh. Weird innit mate? That's how BROKEN OUR HUMOR SENSES ARE.

Anyways...

In a world that can feel overwhelming, I choose to laugh. It’s my armor against stress and my way of celebrating the little joys. So, I’ll keep laughing at everything—because sometimes, humor is the best way to stay sane in this wild ride we call life.

Laugh more mate. It's just a life. Remove all your worries and laugh more. Enjoy every little moments and be the happiest. Let the people who begged God for your downfall turn into atheists. Comeback and enjoy life, Mate!

Peace ✌🏻

Talk to me (2022)

If you’re in for a wild, supernatural rollercoaster that expertly blends "The Craft" with an episode of "Ghost Adventures" while dialing the absurdity up to eleven, then "Talk to Me" is your next movie night pick. In what starts as a seemingly typical teenage rebellion flick set in Adelaide, quickly morphs into a haunted house party with a hand – yes, an actual disembodied hand – as the guest of honor. The film cleverly navigates through the perils of inviting spirits for a quick chat, which unsurprisingly, spirals out of control faster than you can say "I let you in." It’s a riveting tale that teaches us all a valuable lesson: maybe, just maybe, conversing with the dead via a severed hand isn’t such a great idea after all.

Our heroine Mia, amidst battling her own demons – and I mean this quite literally – decides that talking to her late mother through a possessed tween is a solid plan. This decision-making process might leave some questioning her judgment, but it’s the kind of "hold my beer" attitude that propels this story into the realms of the delightfully bizarre. One of the movie's shining moments is a spirit with a peculiar penchant for podiatry, showcasing a scene where feet sucking becomes a terrifying, yet somehow hysterical, manifestation of the paranormal. It’s this blend of horror and humor that gives "Talk to Me" its unique charm, ensuring you're as likely to laugh out loud as you are to jump from your seat.

In the grand tradition of horror-comedies, "Talk to Me" doesn’t shy away from pushing boundaries, both of the supernatural and of good taste. The finale, a twisted fusion of teenage angst and ghostly vengeance, leaves audiences pondering the real dangers of peer pressure – especially when that pressure involves supernatural entities. With a narrative as unpredictable as its spectral antagonists, the film serves as a metaphor for the ghosts of our pasts, and the lengths we’ll go to for closure... or just a good scare. Clocking in at a spirited 4.5 stars, this movie proves that sometimes, the best way to deal with the hand you’re dealt is to simply talk to it – just make sure you’ve got a candle handy.

So... do watch it and lemme know mate!

Peace!! 

Villains, The Heroes!

"Just bury me in the ocean with my ancestors who jumped from ships because they knew that death was better than bondage - Killmonger"

Villains have long captivated audiences across literature, film, and television. They embody our darkest fears and desires, serving as powerful foils to the heroes we root for. But what makes these antagonists so compelling?

First, villains often represent a distorted version of the protagonist's values. Their motivations, whether rooted in revenge, power, or even misguided altruism, provide a complex backdrop that challenges our understanding of morality. Characters like Darth Vader and Loki are not just evil for the sake of it; their depth adds layers to the narrative, prompting us to explore the gray areas of good and evil.

Moreover, villains allow us to confront our own darker impulses in a safe space. We may not condone their actions, but we can relate to their struggles and desires. This connection can evoke a sense of empathy, transforming them into tragic figures rather than mere antagonists.

Finally, villains often drive the story forward. Their schemes and confrontations create tension and excitement, keeping audiences engaged. Without them, heroes would lack the challenges that define their journeys.

In essence, villains are essential to storytelling. They not only highlight the hero's qualities but also invite us to explore the complexities of human nature, making them an enduring part of our cultural landscape.

So mate, what do you say? 

Villains or Villains?

Tea!

 "Too much tea? There's no such thing."

Tea, is what I live for. Tea is everything for me. It's a prominent feature of my life.

A cup of Tea is a cup of peace. Enjoy life sip by sip, not gulp by gulp. 

My life requires Determination and Tea. For me, Tea time is a chance to slow down, pull back and appreciate the surroundings. Tea decelerates depression. A cup of Tea makes everything better.

I live on Tea. For Breakfast, Lunch and Dinner, I need nothing but Tea. Even now, I am living on Tea.

When it rains, a cup of Tea comes in handy. When it's flaming hot, Tea comes in handy here too. Some might think, how? But yes, Tea works in summer too. Whatever the season it is mate, Tea is everything. 

You meet new people at the Tea shops, you gain friendships through a sip of Tea. I have gained several friends at the Tea shops. And you know those friendships still last. 

Tea is something that people think less of. But for some like us, Tea is indispensable. 

And you are more interested in Tea, like me. Go read this : ( https://justmaniacthings.blogspot.com/2024/09/chill-brotha.html?m=1 )

And Thanks to that special friend ( As I have mentioned in my previous blogposts ) for propounding this topic. 🫶🏻

Embarrass yourself !

 "It's only embarrassing if you care what people think."

The thing which I am proud of saying that I learnt throughout my life is "making myself embarrass".  

Embarrassing myself has turned into my favourite thing. Who cares mate? No one cares what you do. No one cares about what you spoke during that seminar. No one cares bro. 

NO ONE

Do what you want. Do what makes you happy. Do what makes you feel alive. 

The less you give a **thing**, the happier you'll be.

Take that chance brother, give a comeback. Hit that Comeback Mate. Come on kid. You can do it. Don't care what people think. People are just People.. They are vacuous and Naive..

Seriously honey, you care for people? YOU care for people.. Heyy! I know you hate them. Then why do you listen to their comments? 

They'll talk about you for a second and move on with their lives. I have repeatedly said all of these in several of my blogposts. Yet, I am repeating. You know why? 

Huh! Just to remind myself that being embarrassed is okay. I use you people, to remind myself to hit that Comeback. It's like.. I connect with you guys and myself through these blogposts. Don't think that I am confident and everything. I am an average girl. I am just a girl 🎀. 

Therefore, mate! Come on. Let's climb that step together. Together. We have another 3 months left. Let's make it. Let's get done with all our new year resolutions. 

Let's get embarrassed. Just because people judge us, we cannot put our happiness away. We gotta live guys. 

I mean, yes! We've got our own struggles. But, we aren't dead yet.. 😎

We can do it mate..!

Peace!! 

Mentally ill, but totally Chill!

Mental illness has turned into a trend nowadays. Whomever you talk to, they flex mentioning that they have some kind of mental illness. 

The kids at the present does not know how serious Mental Illness is. It is not funny guyz. People suffer due to this. 

I personally do not have mental illness and do not use it to sound cool. It is not cool. Yet...

I have two moods

1. Constant panic and worrying about every little detail.
2. It is What it is.

I personally do not suffer from mental illness, but I would prefer, "Already disturbed, proceed with caution". Instead of, "Do not disturb" board. 

It's the tiny worries for me. I overintellectualize and overemphasize the tiny bits. Nevertheless, I have learnt from my mistake. And now, eventhough I face perturbing situations. I just chill. I just Chilllll.

That's the mantra mate. Chill. Stay chill. We are all Elsa's of our lives. Chill like her. Sing "let it go" and shoot the snow.

Chill and Let chill.

Peace.!

Happiness.

 All a person wants, needs and chases is "Happiness" all of us are running for freedom and for the joy which we never experienced in reality but in dreams. 

We do wish on becoming the happiest versions of ourselves, don't we? 

Where can we find this happiness?

It's everywhere mate. Where you go, whatever you do, this "Happiness" thing is always around you. It follows you like your shadow. Yet hey, remember that your shadow disappears at a point of time but your Happiness wouldn't.

We are rushed and exhausted to look around for happiness. If we accept the fact that happiness is always around us then we'll be available and we'll be always around Happiness.

Do what you like. Do what you love. Give your best at the important ones. Stay alive and make it happen mate. The happiness we receive after achieving in everything we love is stupendous.

So mate, do what YOU want to do,not what the Society tells you to do.

Wake up to the reality kid. And make it happen. Let the happiness pursue you. 

Peace. 

Peace? Peace.

 "Peace was never an option."

Peace. For me, it was just a word. Yes, it WAS. I never settled down. I wanted revenge. I wanted the person on the opposite to feel the same pain. I wanted them to suffer, twice as much as I did. 

But, one hectic day, I was describing the trauma I faced by some authorities to one of friends. I was telling him that I wanted revenge and I would make them regret everything. His reply text was, "Not worthy, leave it. You're stressing yourself not them. Don't lose yourself while being hungry for revenge." 

I felt it. I felt it here. In my heart. 

I left everything. My grudge, my anger and my ego. Do you know mate? Do you know how it felt? Like a big lump of garbage being disposed after a wild week of being busy. I felt like a new person. It felt.. It felt fabulous. 

Okay okay... enough of my lies.. 😂💔

You thought I changed? So did My friend 😂

But bro.. Nah huh!

Why should I withdraw? They placed false accusations on me. They condemned my friends and me for something we never did and will never ever think of doing. And now they are sleeping peacefully, while my friends and I are on Depression every night? 

And you want me to change?? Hello? 

You know what? Such dam fool people create Villains. And then "guilt trip" us? 

How can someone sleep Peacefully without any guilt? How can someone sleep Peacefully after destroying a student's life? How can someone sleep Peacefully after giving a person the suicidal thoughts?

Peace is never an option mate. 

You gotta fight. You gotta fight for yourself. Being quiet and ignorant of the situation will bring you nowhere. The traumas will continue, if you do not speak up.

STAND FOR YOURSELF.

TALK.

TALK. 

SPEAK OUT.

No one's coming to save you, Love.

Be at peace with the people who talk trash about you infront and praise you at your back.

Don't choose peace with the people who deserve to be cut off from the world.

Anyways..

Peace mate. (I have it, if you want, I'll give you too)

The OG Vibes!

"Life is all about comebacks, innit mate?"

Every downfall teaches us something deep. Something so deep that it will brutally develop our character. "Character development", the mostly used phase by a guy who just broke up with his girlfriend. 

People, are.. Just people. They are like us too. Then why do we fear them? Why do we have anxiety to perform infront them? They are just humans. Just humans. Why do we bother about them judging us? Do they really matter to us? Do they? 

"The people who will judge us for what we are good at while they have no idea about it", bothers you?

"The people who will eventually forget what you did, how you were awkward and were embarrassed of yourself", bothers you?

Listen to me mate, people do not care about what you do. They have got a life too, like you and I. Their life is what matters to them, not yours. Don't try to become the main character in others' life mate. Same as that, don't let any other individual to become the main character of your life.

Focus on your life. Be the main character of your life. Don't care about anyone. Bring the "OG YOU" back mate. Hit that comeback which you have been procrastinating for months.

Go to the gym, build those muscles. Do the assignments. Participate in all the events. Showcase your skills. Learn new skills. Upskill yourself. Go to the practices on time. Work hard on yourself. Bring the "YOU" back kid. I believe in you. I know you are capable of everything. 

Yes, I might be.. I mean.. Yes, I am a stranger to you. But hey you know something? More than the close ones, the advices which comes from a stranger lives a long time in our mind. (If you watch tamil movies and have watched "Jigarthanda 1", then you'll apprehend to what I am talking about) 

I know it's hard. But hey, You can do it Kid. YOU CAN DO IT! 

ONCE AGAIN. I BELIEVE IN YOU KID. Come on, make it happen. Not for anyone this time. Okay? It's for you. For your dreams. For your passion. For your peace. For yourself. Purely for yourself.

WAKE UP!! 

 

Words? Words.

 Life is not designed to run out on you, in one day.

With the dawn of a new day, your sorrows don’t grow, but melt away.

Millions of eyes, shedding tears, would have dropped to the ground.

Life moves on, in spite – and mother earth sprouts flowers all around.

From the day, you leave your mother’s womb.

A search begins to play, until you reach the gates of your eventual tomb.

Opening your eyes, to see that all the world is a stage,

Close your eyes, to stay in the safety of your mind’s cage.

Born into a war field, what you get and lose doesn’t matter.

Living in a jungle, thorns don’t kill you – nothing to clatter.

Your shadow stops being your friend, when you walk in the dark.

You are your own seeker in the world – truth.

The day will come when your corpse burns in flames,

Until then, this loneliness will persist in this never ending games.

Waiting aboard the ship, looking for the moment to hit shores.

Rise up and fight, even if it is a volcano, standing on its top, as it roars.

As I realize the truth behind the secrets of god’s holy way,

It is that, nothing exists forever, everything melts away.

My heart floats into the open space,

when I finally get to see the creator........

The heart wishes and accounts for things as yours and mine.

Your burning physical desire marks people as yours and mine.

Nothing is yours or mine, but is for the creator to take.

who is a sinner, who is blesses, is a decision, for him to make.

The world we live in, waits to let you take the blame,

Where are the souls, that felt prey to this act of shame.

Standing at the corner of the world, we view this acting stage,

Only to start acting and be a part of this ever lasting cage.

We need to switch between faces, And so we do.

Lots of turns to take, And so we do.

Let the story take its path and come to its own end.

Do we need another birth to tend?.

These are the words which saved my life twice this year. Credits to Yuvan Shankar Raja and Yuvan Shankar Raja only.!

What's happening?

"Nothing is guaranteed"

Our whole life.. Is a lie. What we live, what we eat, what we drink, what we do. Everything's a lie mate.

Have you ever thought of life in that way? That.. That nothing makes sense. Like NOTHING.

Not even a single thing makes sense bro. 

We are not in this world together, we segregated by thoughts, we are segregated by passion, we are segregated by dreams and much more... We have different opinions and we look at the world and life with different perspective. How do we think that? I mean yes, we have scientific as well as spiritual explanations on how we think. But, how did that person figure out how humans think? 

He Thought? Then is it a loop? You did get it, didn't you? That person must have thought of a method to figure out how we think.

Everything's confusing.

How did we end up on the other side of the world? Why did we end up on the other side of the world? Why do we even exist. What's the purpose of living?

We come, we live and we go again?

(Enter "Kalakalapu 1" [Tamil movie] dialogue, "Idhuku paruthi moota Gudown laye irundhurkalam")

Why do we come into this world.. To die? We live just to suffer. Is suffering, Life? Is that it?

Why do we need food and water to live? Why do we need Oxygen to breathe? Why does everyone's need end up being Food, Shelter and Clothing? Who designed these? Why did they design them?

If God created all these, then.. Then why doesn't He talk to us directly? He is our creator, isn't it? Why do we need to plead to Him? While He can do anything in split of a second? Why did He construct us in this way?

And If it is scientific, why did these reactions happen? Just for us to die every single day? 

Lack of food, lack of water, lack of shelter...

Apart from everything, why does Money play a major role? Why? Why are we invented in this manner?

If we die in a natural way, then who created the Suicide props? Who created those thoughts?

What's even Happening?

Is this all real? Where do we go after our death? Heaven? Hell? Another universe?

Thoughts. They are the eeriest thing in the entire world!

 

Sarcasm, my Vibranium shield!

Hey kid!

Yes! Yes I know that you are exhausted.

Everyone's tired of something.

Look at me, if you meet me in person you will meet the most worn-out individual in the entire world. 

(Yes, Karen.. I know that people face more difficulties than me and I am not that "most worn-out individual in the entire world", yet, my problem is gargantuan to me, right.. Man, you karen get into my nerves every single time)

Watched it kid? People like Karen, will always quell you, will always look at you like a corrigendum and will not let you live in peace. 

How I deal with them is... I turn everything into Sarcasm.

Chandler from the Television series "Friends" is one my most relatable characters. He has immense amount of traumas yet he makes his friends laugh through his humour. 

Eventhough he was at his lowest, he never demonstrated it to the people but he kept everyone around him happy. Chandler was played by the actor, Matthew Perry. The casting crew did a stupendous work there. The script writer did not have to work on that character much. It literally felt like Matthew's character being played with a Fictional name. Matthew Perry is Chandler. Chandler is Matthew Perry. (It's a fact, not an opinion)

He suffered while making us laugh. If you listen to his struggle you will make up your mind that your struggles are not even STRUGGLES. 

He inspires me a lot

(Extra information; I have not yet recovered from his death)

I am, not completely, but for atleast 75%, like Chandler. I use Sarcasm as my defense mechanism. I turn everything into Comedy. Everything's a joke to me. Yes! Everything's a joke to me.

This world is full of fatuous people, kid. Keep that in mind. Don't take these people into your mind. Uncivilized humans. Just worth nothing.

Trust yourself, trust your guts and make the moves. You want it, take it. You don't want it, just leave it. You want to talk, stand up. You want some alone time, have fun being alone.

You are everything you need. You have yourself. That's enough to conquer the world mate. 

Have fun!!

Peace ( I have it now, if you want, ask me, I'll give it )

Judas Kiss!

"People I loved-- People I trusted-- have done their absolute worst to me (Movie: Mr. Robot)"

The most demented, pig-ignorant and cretinous beings are the Human Beings. Including me. (I knew it Karen, that you would start typing, "You are a hooman too". Always find mistakes without knowing that You're itself the biggest mistake in this world) My bad, got a bit sappy!!

Anyways...

Except for Family, Friends, Dhoni and D (my Favourite Fictional Character) everyone's dumb. Not mentioning other cricketers, singers, directors, musicians.. I guess you get whom I'm talking about.

(The people who are condemnatory, disdainful, egocentric and imbecilic.)

The saddest part is that we have to live with these kind of people. No matter what, no matter how aware we are of to whom we talk and do not talk, we will definitely have such kind of people in our lives. And I... Have many of them.

Being an extrovert, I love talking to people. Read it again, I said that "I love talking to people" not "I love attaching emotionally to the people". Talking is different from being attached to people. When you talk.. You just know them, you aren't friends with them.

I realized that I do not put my trust on everyone. When my friends asked about whom I trust the most. I just mentioned a certain amount of people which is easy to be counted. And hey, that's the best feeling ever.. To know that you only believe few and you know that this trust can never be broken.

Happy and satisfying innit mate. 

God, Family, Friends, Dhoni and D (I know he is Fictional, but still hey.. keep quiet) are the ones I trust. I trust none apart from them. 

You know why??

Because people are barmy. They are the most ludicrous, risible and glaikit beings to ever exist. They even betray their own family and friends? Bro like, how?? How can you all even think of that?

Not gonna lie, but I have faced several betrayals in my life. A day.. Uhm! When the Tamil movie "Raayan" got released, we were having our dinner at the mess hall, one of my akkas told me to watch that movie. And then without even catching her next breathe, she told, "Anu, you are being betrayed by everyone like how Dhanush from that movie gets betrayed." 🙃

I was befuddled. But then when I was back in Sri Lanka (MY ONLY HOME), I watched the movie and associated myself to Dhanush from that movie. She was right. She was absolutely right. 

People can never be trusted. They will never hesitate to betray you. 

** intense music plays **

** the motion shot changed from fast Movement to slow Movement **

** Crowded yellow line, Bird's eye view shot on a guy facing to the left while the crowd is facing to the right **

** "Be Different" quote pops out from the screen in yellow coloured "Quentin Tarantino font" **

Why did I create that scene? Nothing, just for you to imagine something. See! See, what I did there? I made you imagine something out of the blue. That's how people work. 

Just through words I made you enter my imagination. This habit that we practiced from the LKG, UKG and Playway made this possible. Words have power. Use them wisely. Just when you talk something and then apologize for it later will never fix the feeling the person on the opposite felt when you spoke it. Nothings going to change the past dude, that's the next lesson.

Nothings going to change the past. Have fun in the present. Forget everything. The present is all we have in our hands bud. Enjoy it, Let's think about the future and stress.. a bit later, okay!!

Have fun now. Do not believe Humans. Betrayal has become the new trend. Beware and have fun fellas..! 

Do not trust anyone. Everyone's like the "Judas' Kiss", brother

Peace (I have it now, if you want ask me)

Better to die than live!

 "Life is very short bro, we live everyday, so just leave everything and die one day. - Me"

People are poison. People are the cruelest things in the entire world. People are... Ewwwwwww.

Don't be afraid of losing people. Be afraid of loosing yourself by trying to please everyone. (Source, Coco)

The "they" people, made me lose myself. "They" made me hesitate to carry my cricket kit. "They" made me re-think about the thing I loved my entire life.

When you lose in a relationship, you lose someone else. But when you lose in sports, you lose yourself.

"THEY" MADE ME LOSE MYSELF 

Not a revenge story, but a journey to make the cruel regret it's actions. I do not know what to do right now, but I know that I want to make them regret for their scandalous actions.

Villains aren't born, they are made. I just want to look at their faces, stare dead into their eyes and say, "I don't mind being the villain in your story, beacuse you're a Clown in mine."

Just remember that I would never never stab anyone in the back, that's such a boring form of betrayal. 

A villain is simply a victim whose story hasn’t been told. Behind every villain lies a broken heart. A villain is someone hurt by the world and so they take revenge on it. The scariest villains are the ones who have nothing left to lose.

I sometimes think that, "What’s The Point Of Extorting And Murdering If You Don’t Get To Do What You Desire?" (Source, Lucifer)

If You Feel Guilty After reading All these, Then This Is For You;

Did You Know There's A Special Section In Hell Reserved For You? So, Have Fun!

One last time..

"You either die a hero or live long enough to see yourself become the Villain"

I would never die as a hero, yet I have lived enough to see the Villain in me grow gradually.

Whatever, You'll think about these quotes and get busy with your life. That's life mate, that's the nature of the humans.

So...

Peace (If you have it, please share it)

Anger!

"My heart's already broken baby go on twist the knife- One Direction"

I am getting lost infront of my eyes. I am failing infront of me. I am loosing the kid inside me. That 13 year old girl who thought that she would become a big icon in cricket is dead. She died yesterday, infront of my own naked eyes.

Seeing your younger self die, is the most tragical feeling to ever experience. 

Like the ignored constellation, they turned a blind eye on me. I heard the sound of my heart tearing apart. I asked for water, but they burned me with fire. I asked for a light but they shattered me into darkness. 

They demolished my dreams that I can't even imagine a life with it. They made me chase the worldly things, they made me live according to their will. They took my life from me. 

THEY TOOK MY LIFE FROM ME

Who are they? "They" are the "they" whom I mentioned yesterday. 

We need someone like JD (Actor vijay's character in the movie "Master") to save us from these injustice happening towards us. It's cringe to read. I know because it was cringe to type either. But hey, don't we expect superheroes from our favourite movies to help us during our distress?

My friends and I wanted a JD, Ranga cheta (from the movie "Avesham") and the Marvel Superheroes to save us. We always talk about them and console ourselves. 

But in reality, it's us vs us. We have to fight for ourselves. No one will come to save us.

In the team huddle, which he mentioned in the post-match session, Dhoni said, "The first and foremost thing was don't look up, God is not coming to save you. You have to fight it out".

It's only us. It's you and the evil doers trying to seek vengeance. But instead we call it as, "Life". Life is cruel.

"You strive for your justice and I strive for mine. We are both just ordinary men who have been driven to seek vengeance in the name of Justice. And if one comes to call vengeance justice, we believe that human beings simply cannot understand each other and they never will."

People searching for that one small hole to escape the typical reality will find themselves in the most traumatic situations.

But hey! Remember one thing. Bad things happen only to the Main characters. It's for the plot, so try to make it out alive

Peace (If you have it, please share it)

Random thoughts - 01

If you follow my blogposts, then you'll know that I'll be leaving home tomorrow. (In case you did not notice it.. It's not leaving to home, it's LEAVING HOME). My heart's already heavy. I'm all smiling and happy, but only my heart knows how bad it wants to be here at home.

Yet, you know that people can also be home.

I have a person, who is my home there in India. 

He/she is the only peace I have over there. I'm not mortifying my friends or my sisters and brothers. They are suffering with me, we are on the same boat, as they are locals they have their families to console them. As an NRI ( Non-Resident Indian), I don't have my family close to me. I mean my relatives are there, but still that one friend makes me feel like.. I'm home. I'll be forever grateful for them.